ditto

Right now, I'm tired. I want to go to sleep, but I'll write a little bit about what happened tonight.

So tonight, we celebrated one our friend's birthday. I've known him since college. He was a really cool guy then and is an even better guy now. I'm amazed at how he lives his life for God and how he treats everyone as how he would want to be treated.

He will do great things in the future.

I don't know what it is that I want to do with my life, but I hope that I can be someone who can be like that.

Anyway, as of right now, I'll most likely stop drinking coffee at night and just go to sleep. It seems like I always want to stay up at night as long as possible. I think the reason is that I don't want to start the next day.

I'm tired, but I want to just spend some time in silence or just thinking to myself.

Anyway, I probably should get a balance in my life.

Questions

I'm at that stage in my life where I'm expected to be somewhere. Not that anybody expects that out of me, it's that I expected that out of myself. I guess the real question is not "why I'm not there," it's "how am I going to get there?"

I could be a loser for the rest of my life. I could just stay where I'm at, maybe someday live on the streets. I keep on talking about what I want to do, but I'm not doing anything about it. It's like the guy who wants to get in shape yet eats junk food and doesn't exercise.

I know that it's going to take conscious decisions everyday to make the right choices. I don't know if I want to do that. I don't know if I can delay having fun now for something better in the future. Maybe I have too little will power right now.

Anyway, I don't have to come up with the answers tonight, but I'm thinking that maybe I should try to make some steps for each week. Goals, and progress reports and to "stick to them."

I kind of forgot what is most important in life. It's so easy to get sucked into the world of warcraft and lose focus on what I should be doing with my time.

Time...we only have so much time in our lives...sometimes the simple things are the things that matter the most.

Anyway, I've already made up my mind as to what I want to do before it hits Saturday. Someone told me that they've made up a rewards system for them to get stuff done. One point is one hour of World of Warcraft. heh.

New addictions

So it's now 2008 and I started something new. I've been sucked into the world...of Warcraft. So now, I've been spending most of my time online playing this game. I must say thought that it is a pretty good game. And the problem is that it never ends.

But we'll see. I'm actually saving money because I'm not buying any new games and I only have to pay a subscription fee of $15 a month. Which could be argued to be only 50 cents a day.

Anyway, I probably should do something productive with my time. We'll see what happens.

One of my goals this year was to grow closer to God. I guess I should set up something so that I'll do that first before I do anything else. I'll update more as time passes.

In other news, I really need to get my act together and do what I've said I'll do. Now is a good time to restart.