Things change

For some things in my life, they haven't. A lot of my friends are growing and moving on with their lives. I know that in my life, that I need to make some changes. It all depends on me and God. If I decide to improve and work for a better future, then maybe some things will happen in my life also.

Tonight, I could help but feel like a loser. It seems like history is repeating itself again. And I'm at that age where I need to make decisions because I need to make them and not let others make them for me. I guess nobody really knows what I'm writing about, but then again, this is a public blog and why would I mention anything too detailed about my personal life.

Anyway, my friends are trying to help me and I appreciate that, but it's no good unless I try to improve. If I do nothing, it means no improvement and staying a loser.

Anyway, I feel like I just don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to do anything it seems like. And I escape from everything instead of going face on against those problems.

Complaining won't help anymore. And yes, this blog is getting depressing. I was at one point doing okay. But it seems like I need to get back to the basics and start doing what I used to do and not get discouraged when things don't work out.

i'm going to take my friend's advice that he gave me today. I'll update one week next sunday.