Hmm...I tend to write things down and forget about them later on. I say a lot of things about what I'm going to do and never get to them. This past Lent season showed me that I could live a much healthier life if I made changes to my life. And I could be in a better place because of that.

Anyway, I went to Easter service today. Some people I haven't seen for a long time were there. I feel like I've changed in a bad way in that I just seemed to have lost some of what I had before. I think I was a better person maybe 3-4 years ago. Even though there have been some good changes in me, I've lost a lot of my social skills.

Anyway, people are growing more mature and I'm not. People are becoming better people, and I'm still the same. I guess you can't become better at something unless you work at it. And that requires putting in the time to make it so. Not putting in the time will only cause you to not get any better at what you want to do.

I should make a schedule.

Blah blah blah blah blah....

I wrote some things and then I deleted them, because it wasn't anything interesting.

Anyway, one of my friends immed me this website

www.wowdetox.com

Stories from people who used to play wow or have addictions to wow. I must say that it is pretty interesting and helpful. It is also kind of funny sometimes, but depending on the story, it can be depressing.

Someone once told me that video games aren't very good for a person...the reason being that you spend the time alone instead of with other people. If you're playing with other people in the room then that's better, but still, because you are alone most of the time, that can lead to depression.

Anyway, it's been awhile since I last wrote.

What's new...nothing much really...I think that I need put certain things first before other things....that's about it.

Got to get going.

I'm reminded of things from the past in Japan. I remember certain things about some of the people. I guess it is a xenophobic place. It wasn't all fun and joy, but I know that things could have been a lot different there. I could have done more or prayed more or even went to church while I was there. But I didn't.

I can't change what happened in the past...my apathy because of my situation there as a failing teacher, but I wonder if maybe I'll ever go back someday.

Some memories are popping up now and then triggered by something like studying Japanese, a video game, or even just the mention of Japan and how I'm feeling at the moment.

I can only hope that I'll be wiser if I ever do go back to Japan. I don't ever want to work there again, because I just can't adapt to the working life there. I mean, what's the point of all these norms? What's the point of making work everything? I missed America while I was in Japan, because I'm used to things in America. It's not as strict, it's a little more understandable of weaknesses.

In Japan, it is a very class based society...and I could never meet their standards for how I "should be." And then, there was the language gap.

Maybe it was good that I came home. Who knows where I'd be if I stayed for another year. I don't know what purpose I had there, but I can only pray that the kids there would enjoy English and seek what's outside of Japan.

Overall, I'm glad that I did go to Japan for a year. I survived there on my own and proved that I can take care of myself. I saw the great scenery there and it was an experience of a lifetime, even though full of sorrows.

Being there I saw some similarities between Japan and America...both being negative similarities, but still it showed me that there's much more to this world than what's in your own country. I don't know what to say anymore...but I can only stress tolerance toward people who are different. Not everyone has to know English or Japanese if they live in those respective countries. Even though it does help to know the language.

Anyway, there were some great people that I met in Japan. Some others were against me, but some were really nice to me. I guess the only thing i can do now is maybe write a postcard and pray.

Okay, so even despite going to sleep early for the past few days, I keep on waking up late...so I'm thinking that either my system is trying to play catch up, or I just need to exercise and keep a consistent time that I go to sleep.

I remember someone saying that you'll sleep better if you sleep at a certain time everyday and wake up at a certain time everyday. Also if you don't sleep more than once a day either.

Anyway, I'm going to sleep