So tonight, there was farewell party for one of our friends who is going to bible school. He has been a good friend to me all throughout since I knew him. I guess I have not been that great of a friend to him. But hopefully I can be a better friend in the future.

I wonder what new things God has in store for him and if he'll meet some awesome girl down where he's going. I guess that's not the reason why he is going, but hopefully he'll meet some good people there.

We watched some of his videos that he made for Christian ministry and other projects. Pretty good stuff and a good sense of humor. I look forward to what he can do in the future with the new skills God will give him.

So questions arise from being dormant so long. I spent so much time in the world of warcraft that I didn't realize how far I'm drifting away from people and from God. Putting things into perspective, if you don't eat, you don't grow. And if you don't exercise, you don't get stronger. A parable about having food to eat which you do not know about, which is God's words found in the bible.

I found that so many people are growing stronger and here I am becoming weaker and weaker. I told myself that before I'd play video games, I'd at least spend some time doing what I should be doing.

Something that I compared life to in terms of world of warcraft though was that "you could be spending all your time doing a job, talking with people, and going out, but unless you take some time out to spend some time with God, then it's empty." World of warcraft can be like a part time/full time job. Basically there's a lot of work to do in that game and even though you can be doing well in the game, you might not be doing well in the real world. Think of some addicts who are playing world of warcraft all the time, yet showing up late for their jobs or even losing their jobs and friendships with people. Compare that with the real world and the spiritual world. You can be doing well in the real world, but spiritually, you might be missing the point.

I wonder if I can keep this up. Right now, I'm weak and malnourished.

Where am I going? And what will I do? I know that it's my life and I can do whatever I want with it. I can be whoever I want to be. And I can achieve almost anything I put my mind to. Which is true for everyone in this world. But it all depends on what I use my time on.

Someone once said, "Anything is possible." And I know that with God all things are possible for him who believes.

But i keep on thinking on the failures of my life and wonder if I did something wrong there. Did I not rely on God or did I not pray enough? I know that failures aren't always a bad thing, but if they bring us closer to God, then that's all that matters. You can't succeed all the time, but you must try to succeed. And failure is part of that in that you will fail from time to time, but you can't succeed unless you take a risk of failure. Someone once said that it is better to try to achieve a lofty goal and fail rather than take the easy route and succeed without much effort.

Lofty goals must be met with skill or building new skills. Time is important. And there's so little in each of our lives. First and foremost must be God and putting Him first in our time and finances. However, I wonder exactly how things will be.

I wonder exactly why I'm even here. Guess that's for me to decide.

WoW taken to another level...

What is this world coming to... article found here.

I know that times are rough for a lot of people, but it seems like this tactic done by a mother and her two sons took it to a new level.

Microsoft is sueing the party i mentioned above for making a program that would click on the other gold farmer's sites and cause them to pay 5 cents per click. While that may not seem like much, the program clicked it so much that it drove the competitors out of business. The lawsuit is for $750,000.

Lately it seems like I've been becoming more sarcastic and maybe a little more angry. Maybe it's old age and not spending enough time with God, and some things that come up now and then, but it just seems like I'm just not enjoying life at all.

I feel that life should be work and that man was made to work, but shouldn't life be fun some of the time? Maybe I need to change some things in my life and find other activities to do instead of World of Warcraft and other time sinks. World of Warcraft does feel like a job in itself as I'm always trying to earn gold to buy better gear and grinding levels for my other characters on the game. Heck, one of the ways you earn gold in the game is through your professions ingame.

Anyway whatever it is, I feel that I need to take some time off from work and relax a little bit. But as of right now, I need to stay working to keep earning money. I guess a couple of days wouldn't hurt...And I guess if i were to take some time off, I would be spending it playing video games.

I know that God has plans for all of us, but sometimes I feel that His plans don't always come through. Could be because we're not praying, listening to God, even reading His word and following Him the best we can.

I see my friends making steps to follow God closely and here I am wasting my life in this fake world. I was talking with one of my friends on the way home and I mentioned something about this guy at work and this video game and that there are real people in this world that he could talk to instead of playing this game. But sadly enough, I'm no different...

Anyway, looking around I can see greater things that I could do with my life if I followed God...but it always seems like I choose me over God. I guess Paul in his letter was right when he said that he "dies daily." Meaning that he chose God over his own will each day. I guess I need to get the right perspective in my daily walk and not so much look at what I can gain in this world, but how God can work through me to impact someone else.

Just thinking about that makes me feel even more tired. I guess if I start doing what I did before in college ministry, things will get better. I wonder what it is that God is leading me towards, but I know that God has great plans for all of us. It's a question of whether or not we follow Him.