When it comes to focusing on the important things in a conversation, I'm a total space case. I tend to go off on tangents for some reason.

Anyway, today I was talking to someone at work and when I was talking, my points were going here and there. I didn't mean for it to be so random, but the way that my sentences came out I meant different things than what they thought I was saying. Hmm..I guess I need to focus on one point and only focus on that when I'm talking. Sounds kind of boring, but I think that's how most people talk. They usually have a topic and talk about the topic. While in my case, I just tend to go on different points about the topic, but people think that I'm still talking about the first point. Hmm...maybe I should work on my speaking ability some more.

Hmm...yeah...that could be one reason why people don't like talking to me. heh

Crazy last week...

My week wasn't so crazy, but one thing about it was. When I was driving to go pick up someone late at night, there was this blockade of police cars blocking my way there. I stop thinking that there's nothing serious that happened. The last time there was a blockade of police cars was around this time when I was going to work and it was just because they were pulling over someone. The car in front of me makes a u turn and I pull up a little closer to see what happened. Apparently there was smoke coming from this car turned on its side. A policeman is scrambling back to his car and runs back to the car on its side.

I thought, "this looks serious." I make a u turn and go a different route. A fire truck is coming along with another police car going down the next street at the intersection...probably so that the blockade doesn't have to move and they can get to the car on the other side.

I pick up my friend and tell him about it. We go to work.

Today, he told me that he got a phone call from his girlfriend saying that so and so, his friend, died. The car that I saw had his friend inside of it. Apparently he was trying to run away from a cop in his car and was going too fast on the turn. It was just a little before I got there. I'm glad that I was late, or else I might have been hurt or worse yet...dead.

Anyway, I guess I have to be careful when driving around at night. I wonder if he was speeding and was trying to get away just because of the fear of getting a speeding ticket. It's really tragic, because this guy was only like around 18-19 years old.

As I drove by the same area today, I saw a whole bunch of candles lit in the exact spot where I saw the overturned car. Crazy...

I guess it's really fragile. Life that is. Anybody could be here one moment and the next be taken away. I feel sorry for the guy who died. I'm also happy that I was late and didn't have to witness that or be part of that. It's crazy that the guy that I was picking up was a friend of the guy who died.

I don't know what to say.

Today I was reminded that God loves all people. A medical mission team sent from our church went to an Asian country. Hearing some of the testimonies from the people that went was really encouraging. I don't want to write too much, because I'm going to go to sleep soon, but I thought that here is one example of God reaching other people. It was good to hear the heart that the missionaries have for the people that they outreached to.

It makes me think about my own walk and where I'm at now. One thing that someone said to me today was that, "you have to experience God here first, before you go out." While I do agree with that statement, I wonder exactly if I will ever go out. Is it true? I'd say that with this class that I'm taking that one point comes to mind. "If you can't reach people of your own culture, or even people in your own family, then what makes you think that you can reach people of another culture?" So I guess in a sense, it is. It's so much harder to reach people of a different culture, because there are a lot of things different. It's not a bad thing, but it does present a barrier if you don't understand their culture, or how things are presented or passed down, etc.

Anyway, I wonder exactly where I'm headed. Where am I headed to? I really don't know where I'm going. What I do know is that I'm not doing what I should be doing. I'm thinking that what that person said today is true. It has to start here in my heart with God in a relationship, before it can go out and reach the nations. If I don't have that, then why would I think that I'd be anymore effective than I am now in my own country?

Work went okay today. It started out good, but at the end, we got killed on one belt. I was on that belt at the end of the day.

We were heavy today, which is not something that anybody wants to hear. When we were finished at the unload, I went to load trucks. Man, there was so much crap outside of that truck. Plus there was a lot of crap inside of that truck too. It was all mixed together on the outside, so I did the best I could and tried to get all the nose packages in first, but had to get some of the rear packages in too so I could make some progress.

Well, I think that people could tell that I was frustrated. I was working slower because I had to manuever around packages all over the car. I don't know how we got them all in there, but they all fit right up to the back. I don't think that the driver is going to be happy with this load, but then again, all he needs to do is deliver it. Which might involve him making some backtracking trips. But other than that, I'd say that the day went well.

Seeing what the drivers have to put up with everyday, I'm thinking that I don't want to advance in this company. Even though they start out at $17.50 an hour, it'd take me around 2-5 years to get promoted to that, which I'm not willing to do. I'd say however that this company is good for those who don't have a college education. It provides opportunities for people who are hardworking, yet don't have a degree. It's hard work though, and I wouldn't recommend this job to everyone. But it does have its good points about it.

I really think that I could do better than this job, but for now, I'm using this job as a way to earn money so that I'm not going to be left out to dry. I guess that's one reason why I should be saving up money.

Money...

I know that I shouldn't be motivated to action by guilt, but motivated to action by love. Sometimes I feel that I lack that. My heart seems like it lacks that and I end up doing things because I know that it will help someone else out, yet there's something missing inside. I guess I should spend more time with God. Yeah, that'd be good. heh.

Some thoughts about life

The past few weeks, I've been having a pity party. I've been thinking that I'm such a loser. A lot of things have been contributing to this, but this past Saturday I was reminded that God loves me regardless of what I do as a job. He loves regardless of what other people may think about me. He loves me regardless of my fears and what I don't do as a result.

I've been feeling pretty bad at work, but then I was reminded that I make my own time there. I can choose to feel depressed or I can work to make myself better. I know how to make myself better, because I've gotten there before. I know how to get there, I'm just lazy in getting there. Anyway, things have been getting better the past couple of days since I snapped out of this funk. I really don't care what other people think anymore. I can focus on liking myself as who I am and not worry so much about whether or not people like me or even accept me. Highly idealistic right now, but I'm hoping to make this a reality in my life again.

One thing that one person told me is that it's not about avoiding feeling bad. What it's about is bouncing back and getting back to feeling good about yourself. So how that relates to me is that I know that bad times will come. I expect them to come. And when they do come, I shouldn't stay down in a depression, but learn to bounce back. I've had to catch myself a couple of times when I stopped bouncing back to where I was before. I'm thinking that I need to work on this some more.

Anyway, I can't do this alone and I don't expect to do this alone. The one person that I've always depended on is God alone. He understands everything that I go through. And even though I've turned away from Him for a little bit, I'm starting to get back into the better habits. Yeah, God has been the only person that I could turn to in everything. And I really should treat Him better than I do now. And I should really listen and obey, even if it's hard. The alternative to doing that is following my own desires again and falling back into that funk. Hmm...I guess I'll always wrestle with this.

Anyway, that's the update on my life.

Pipe Dreams

I'm wondering if I really want to be a translator, or if this is some pipe dream of mine that will never come to pass because I'm not serious about being one.

I don't know. I think that it would be a really good job for me, but I wonder if I'd go crazy doing it. I guess that's one thing that I need to consider. If I could handle being a translator by doing a whole bunch of work by myself, or if I could handle the fast paced environment of being a tsuyaku translator (an interpreter). This is all dreams right now, and it may never come to pass.

I guess I need to make time for something. What am I going to do? I think that I'll play video games with my Japanese playstation. That way, I'll get a feel of how people talk and how people test my understanding of the basic Japanese spoken dialogue. I don't have access to dramas anymore, so I guess I'll have to find a place where I can download them, or buy them. Maybe Japanese movies are the way to go.

Hmm...I've never actually understood what a "Pipe Dream" is. I only remember a video game resembling that. I think what it is is that it's something that is a big dream, but not easy to do. I guess I dream small when I think big. But it's my life, and I'm not looking for fame. I'd like to have enough money to eat and play video games. I kind of wonder if I'd be able to work in a video game field translating. That's what I'd like to do the most. But really, my Japanese is not fluent right now and there's a lot that I don't know. I guess self study is the way and actually going to Japan someday. When will that happen...I'm not sure with my complications in life.

Thoughts...

I think that God is showing me that some things that I held onto dearly aren't so important after all. I knew that before, but didn't want to let it go. What I learned today is that I need to seek first the kingdom of God before anything else. Before I do anything or give anything, I need to seek first God and His Kingdom. Really, that's what matters most. God and people. Man, so simple, yet so hard to focus on only these. I'm not saying that nothing else is important, or that you should give up everything you have, but what I am saying is that these two are the most important there are. These two matter most to God. That you love God with all your heart, soul, mind and strength, and that you love your neighbor as yourself. I kind of think that God is really practical. So simple, yet so deep. The video games that I have only have one face to them. While God and people have so many different characteristics to them.

Real life...man...to me this is like turning my whole world upside down. hehe. But I've been focusing on the wrong thing.

I haven't written consistently for awhile. I've been reluctant to share my feelings online, because many people don't know me and some who do know me might know what I'm talking about. But I think that it has been a good time of just thinking through things for awhile.

Lent

It is now the Lent season. I wonder each year why is it that I do this? Why do I break my routine and do this? Am I doing it for God? Or am I doing it just to fast. I'd like to think that I'm doing this for God, but really, I think that I have a habit of doing this for myself. Someone once said that Lent consists of doing something with the time that you now have instead of doing without something. What I interpret this as is spending time with God and reading His Word. Hopefully my relationship with Him will grow stronger and that I'd really grow in love for God. But we'll see how well I can stay focused.

This year, I'm fasting coffee and one other thing which may seem kind of ridiculous. I tend to look for deals online when I get home from work and that takes about one to two hours of my day. I spent so much time looking for deals that I ended up losing a lot of the best hours of my day. So I decided to not search online unless I know exactly what it is that I want to buy. I'm not going to look through the ads that I'm sent every other day on my email.

Work...

Work seems to be going good for the moment. I got sent down to a belt today to help out. Apparently one of the guys felt sick during the middle of the shift and a lot of things got piled up outside of the trucks that he was supposed to load. He came back after he threw up, which was one hour before the shift ended. heh. It's all good though. He's a good worker and everyone will forget this in the near future. Everyday at this company seems like it's the same thing over and over again.

There were a lot of late trains this past week, so we were heavy today. We are usually heavy on Mondays, because shipments over the weekend come in and we have multiple days that we have to catch up on. Well, I guess it's only Saturday and Sunday. And I guess it's not that bad either.

I'm getting along with the people at work. I don't talk to them that much though and they don't bother me. I'm not sure what to talk to them about. Maybe I should take a risk and see what conversations could come up. But then again, it seems like they all are listening to some of the other guys' conversations.

Nothing interesting today...yeah.

What has changed?

One thing that came to mind as I was reading my Perspectives reader was that someone once said to me when I asked them, "Since I became a Christian, haven't you seen any change in me?" This was to a person who knew me before I became a Christian. He said, "no, I don't." He told me some reasons why and I don't remember too much of what he said. But I do remember the conversation that we had about the great examples that some Muslim people he met were and some bad examples of Christians that he knew.

When I think about things in perspective of this class, I probably could have answered him a little better after reading some of the text and listening to the speakers. But back then, I didn't know much about the Bible, and still today, I don't know that much, even though I know a little more.

Anyway, I lost contact with him, because of various reasons, but I still remember that he probably didn't understand, as a lot of other people don't understand what following Christ is about. I'm seeing that I have a long way to go to catch up in my faith and I wonder if I ever will get any further.

When I think about my life since I became a Christian and a pivotal moment in my walk I think, what has changed? What, if anything has changed? How have I grown? How am I following God any closer than I was before? I really can't think of any major thing that I've really done to follow God any closer. I can think of some minor things, but really, I have not given my life up, or as some would say, "be sold out for Christ."

Anyway, I don't think that this is going to be answered overnight or anytime soon, but this class is getting me to think about some things and I really need to make some decisions.

I've been a Christian for 6 years now. I can't keep staying in this toddler stage. I need to move forward. So I guess the question is, "What am I going to do?" I have some ideas for some baby steps

I seem to have a hard time with waking up for important events. Most of my time seems like it's spent sleeping. I wonder why. Maybe I need to sleep more now that I'm sleeping during part of the day, ie. not sleeping that well.

I've missed the past couple of bible studies, because I've been too tired to go. I've overslept for a majority of them. I always feel so tired. Why is that? Maybe this weird sleeping schedule is not good for me.

Anyway, I guess I wouldn't be sleeping if I didn't need it.

Someone noted at one class that "faith is not about feeling good. How you feel doesn't show where your faith is." They said something about faith, but I forgot the rest. I kind of wonder where my faith is at right now. I'm not doing very much for the kingdom and I should pray more. Yeah, things need to start in prayer to God.

Reflections

This class that I've been taking has been a good class, but I wonder if it's going to be like all the other classes that I've taken. Not saying anything about the quality of this particular class, but I'm saying am I going to really use any of this, or is this just going to be something good to know. I know that it takes intentional efforts and choices to really live for God and grow in faith. But mainly, there's more to it than that.

What one person who is taking the class with me is saying from one of the speakers, "it's good to improve yourself and your church, but what is your focus? Are you doing it just so you can become a better person, like some self help type of thing? Or are you doing it for a purpose, so you can go out and bring others to Christ?" I must say that he really thinks things through, which is something that I haven't done for awhile. I haven't really thought too much about this class, and I can say that I have a long way to go in catching up on the hw. Man, I guess I can't keep doing the same things and expect a different result.

The class that I'm taking is called "Perspectives." It's a good class in thinking things through. Most of the time we know the answers, yet we don't think what the big picture is. The class is about changing your perspectives about God and church. It challenges a lot of what we've heard that church is about, or just how the church is run in general. What I've learned is that we're blessed to be a blessing to the nations, ie other people who have never heard about Christ and our neighbors who don't know Christ. What so often happens is that church becomes something that we go to every week and how we can make our lives better. But it's not supposed to be like that.

In the Bible, you see people making great sacrifices for God and their brothers and sisters. It's not that they let other people take advantage of them, but they did things that they could do (which aren't done too often today) to help those in need. By doing that, they helped others get on their feet and come to know Jesus in the process. I wonder, what the heck am I doing here on this planet? What am I doing here that is giving God glory? Am I really doing anything worthwhile?

Maybe one thing that I should consider really, is a short term mission. I have never been on a mission. I feel though that I'm not very effective here. I have trouble even talking to others that I don't know. How can I go to another place and expect things to be different in my behavior? I don't know. Would I change? Would I live more for God? I don't know and I guess I should look to how I can change here first before I decide whether I go or not. It'd kind of be bad to have people support me and have it all be for nothing. That, or supporting myself and going somewhere and finding that I did it all for nothing. Maybe that's just a fear of mine that is overblown, because nobody can predict the future. But I'm thinking that things in the past do determine how we act or what we do. I'm not completely sure about that though.

What the speaker from this past week said was, "Hindsight about what God is doing can give a picture about the foresight." Something like that. Anyway, I think that this class is a class that all people who are considering going on missions should take. Or people who have done a mission should take.

It's called Perspectives. Not an easy class if you take the hw part of it. But to get the most out of it, you should do the readings and quizzes.

check it out at www.perspectives.org

World at war...yeah...it's a warzone out there. I've come to realize that not everything is as peaceful as it seems. But yeah, got to pray more, because God does hear and listen.

Man, I don't have very much time anymore. I've been wasting a lot of it looking for deals. I also don't have very much money either. But, I will say one thing, the things of this world will fade away. I'm seeing that there are more important things out there, but it still doesn't help when I'm still attached to video games so much. heh. Hmm...maybe I should fast video games for lent. It starts next week I think. Man, if I do that then I'd have no incentive to finish my homework. Coffee maybe...Or TV...tough to do either of those. But I think that it would do me good.

One thing that I'm learning is that fasting is not about abstaining from something, but using that time to pray and read God's word in what you would use the time doing the other. Whether it be TV, food, or coffee etc. Man, with my job, I really don't think that it'd be wise to fast food at any time. So I won't do that or else risk getting injured. But, I will fast other things from time to time. Hmm...maybe I need to make a schedule.

Anyway, nothing really interesting to post. Heh, just an update on my so called life. heh. I have things to say, but I really don't want to post those things or else spend time that I don't want to use posting it. Hmm...maybe I will post on the weekend though...

Man, I slept all day today until now...After going to class today, I went home and slept. I think that part of it could be my weird sleeping schedule, but who knows.

on another note...
For some reason, I feel that I haven't been able concentrate on what I need to do lately. The reason being that I'm doing what I want to do first instead of doing what I need to do. Because I'm doing what I want to do first, there's no incentive to do what I need to do and I end up not doing it. It's pretty straightforward...and I'm sure that anybody would say, "duh."

I guess I have the whole night to do what I need to do.

Speaking of class, my parents have talked to me about going back to school when I find out what I really want to do. College was supposed to be that time, but I found that I didn't know what it is I wanted to do. I thought that it was programming, but I found that I didn't do so well in that. Maybe I'll go back to community college and take some class on that again. Community college isn't as tough as a 4 year university, so I'm thinking that it might be something that I should look into.

I've always been interested in video games and I have a lot of experience playing them. It's just that I don't have that much experience making them. I wonder if I'll ever get into making them. It's a tough task to do and it's a really tough business. Things in video games are changing a lot and becoming a lot more realistic. Final Fantasy XII from Square-Enix is going to be the first Final Fantasy to be changed from its first generation of turn based combat to more of an online RPG based combat with different styles of how to fight with your team members. Yeah, things are changing from how I used to know them. They're definitely becoming more advanced as time passes.

Debate on Final Fantasy and Kingdom Hearts

They took this thread down, but on the Squaresoft website, there was one guy who posted something that questioned if Final Fantasy should become more like Kingdom hearts. He received a lot of negative feedback because people liked the old system. The guy who posted it said that he liked the Final Fantasy games, but he was trying to spark some conversation so that he could see if anybody thought that they were a little outdated. Apparently nobody on the thread did.

Jump two years later and now Square-Enix is coming out with FFXII. Maybe someone from Squaresoft read that thread and had some new ideas. Or maybe after playing some of the new games that came out last year, like "World of Warcraft", or "Guild Wars" they had a revelation that it might be good to change. It could be even further back to "Everquest", but who knows. All I know is that there are a lot of creative people out there who have an idea of how to do things better. There will always be someone who can think of something new or how to make something different and that's a good thing. I'm just glad that games are becoming more advanced. Man, it's weird how I can talk so much about video games. heh. I can definitely say that I have a love for video games that has kept me interested in them even when I don't have enough time to play them all.

Rogue Galaxy

They have a post on www.gamespot.com about its release for the PS2 in Japan. It came out this past December there. Looks like a really good game and I'd like to get my hands on the import. However, they might be looking to release this stateside or worldwide depending on how the game does in Japan and how people from other countries might buy the game or not. It is a real time action RPG like Dark Cloud, as it's created by "Level 5", the people who made Dark Cloud and this past year's release of Dragon Quest 8. I don't know too much about the game, only that the people who played the import says that the gameplay and the story is done well. Man, I really need to finish my other games first though. I also need to buy a Japanese Playstation 2 later on. Anyway, it's getting late and I need to get to work.

I'm finding that my thoughts are getting really jumbled lately. Maybe it's the lack of school in my life, but I think that I need to do something to keep my mind up to date. Blogger could be a way to do that, but I really don't think that I want to express myself all that much on this.

With the class that I'm taking right now, I'm finding that I'm really out of practice when it comes down to studying. Worse yet, I'm behind right now, because I'm not really wanting to study anymore. It was really nice to just go to work and not worry about hw. But I think that that's one temptation that I must overcome. Oh well, no sense writing about this, I've pretty much come down to two things, do it, or don't.

There are some good things though that I've been learning my class. God is a missionary God. He was like that from the beginning of time, to now, and even in the future. One article put like this, the Bible is a love story about God's intervention in human history. He intervenes, because He loves the people of this world. I can't understand everything that God does, but I trust that He is good and I've seen that He is good in my own life. I'm also learning that He doesn't treat us good so we can keep it for ourselves, but to bless others. Blessed to be a blessing.

When I think about the things going on in my life, I have seen that I really need to pray more. I've always been a person who binges on things. Video games, movies, TV...mainly media stuff. Then I stop for awhile and do what I need to do. I find that that's true in my spiritual life. I tend to do things well for a couple of days and then I have a hard time getting started when I have things to do. What I'm learning is that I need to do this everyday and be consistent for growth to happen. It's kind of like exercise too. You need to exercise on a consistent basis or a regular basis for muscle growth to happen. One of my roommates said that it was unhealthy to exercise irregularly. It's good to get into a routine that your body will recognize. So I guess I've got to really get back into disciplining myself. And also not to abhor discipline from God.

I think that I need to be less busy and more reflective more often.

Another Friday...

"How could you get fired on your day off!?"

No I didn't get fired. That was a line from the movie "Friday". I was thinking that I should really find a new job soon. I don't know...I don't know what I should do, but I'm thinking that another job that pays more would be better. Heh, it's funny how money can determine where you will work.

Anyway, my parents aren't sure if they're going to stay here so I might have to find another job to support myself or find a better job where I can pay rent and support myself and save up money for something. I don't know what I should be saving for, but it could come in handy when I'm in real trouble. Never know when a car might break down...Or when I might need to just buy a new car, or used...

Anyway, my last option is to move with my parents if they do move. However, I don't think that I really want to move over there to that state. And who knows, they're just talking right now about it.

I also don't know what else I could do as a job. With my broad education, I could get a job doing almost anything that just requires a degree. However, it seems like nowadays, people want specialized degrees or experience in a certain field. I could use my Japanese, but I really feel that my ability in using it is not so great. I guess the only way to get better is to actually do it. Yeah, use it or lose it.

Something that keeps coming to mind is that highly motivated people "will not make plans for the future and let large gaps of time pass by before they do something about it." That's something that I read in my job finding packet. It's true though, if you really want to do something, then you should do it now. I find that I'm really not motivated to go anywhere. Maybe this is a rude awakening...my parents talking about moving. I guess I need to find a new job. Or, really work on my Japanese by either studying every day, or getting a job in Japan. Man, I guess if I really want to get out of this job, then I'm going to have to work HARD and consistently.

Something about character came up today. I really think that I'm not as far as I should be at my age. I guess there are a lot of people out there in the same situation. But, it's never too late to get going.

When I think about things, things could really be worse. I have a feeling that they will get even harder. It's inevitable. Don't mean to get anybody down, but life gets tougher as you get older. But that's part of life and depending on how you lived before, it could determine how rough it is later. Consequences...I guess action reaction does take place a lot. If not always. Oh well...no sense worrying about things, just got to do what's right. Not an easy thing to do.

I prayed when things got worse, and they got better. Maybe the one person's email was right. Hmm...anyway, I don't know anymore. I guess I've got to do what I've got to do.

Funny how adrenal glands can cause you to had a bad day. Today wasn't so bad, but when my adrenaline is pumping, then it can bring about memories that have not been so good. I felt like I was reliving another day. But, I snapped out of it towards the end.

I skipped Bible study yesterday and went to sleep again. I was so tired that I just called my friend and told him that I wasn't going to go. I think that it was because of the superbowl that I didn't get much sleep on Sunday so I was tired Monday. I went to sleep at the usual time on Monday and woke up even more tired. So it was no surprise that when I went to sleep again after my doctor appointment that I was going to wake up in the same funk.

Anyway, today I wasn't tired, but I always am reminded of something in the past that sparks my anger. It could be spiritual warfare, so I guess I should pray.

Someone suggested that I see a Christian counselor awhile back. Maybe I should do that. But then again...I'm skeptical. I'm skeptical that my problems are because of a spiritual force causing me to have bad days or remember all these things. It could very well be that I'm in the middle of a battle. But I'm wondering if I just prayed against these things that things would improve. I guess I'll never know unless I do something about it.

One thing that I'm reminded of is that someone once said that God wants to do so many things and that He's just waiting for people to ask. I'm kind of wondering...if I were more diligent in my prayers for people, would they come to know Christ? Could I be more effective at work? And also, would people change? Sometimes I ask for a miracle for some other people, and when I did pray, things did get a little better, but then when I stopped, things would get worse. I'm not saying that my prayers have a direct influence on what God does, but if I prayed consistently for others that I'm trying to ask God for help for, would things be better? Or would I be disappointed? I guess that's why they're called requests. God can answer them no. I am glad however, that God does not answer every prayer with a yes.

What am I talking about in this post...I don't think that I had a point. I am just writing.

Where am I going?

Someone I talked to today was telling me about boxing. One thing that he mentioned was that if you're not motivated or thinking positive, then you're going to get hit. You've got to be thinking quick and always planning ahead what you're going to do next. He said that they'll be an empty spot where you can punch on their face, stomach, chest, wherever.

He's a guy that I talk to at work. Really nice guy and a pretty smart guy too. He's also a very small guy and he looks like a kid still. heh. But he's a good guy.

What this guy said reminded me of what was said yesterday by the speaker at our church. He said one thing about change. "You can't keep on doing the same things and expect change."

How this relates is that I need a change in my life. Not a dramatic change, but spiritually, I'm really thirsty. I haven't been planning ahead of where I'm going to go or what I'm going to do. And, I'm taking punches.

I guess the thing to do is to get out of the routine and get into some good habits.

I always wonder where I'm headed next.

Hmm...

Apparently my pastor wants the people who are taking this Bible class to teach a 2 quarter series or 3 quarter series about this. I'm thinking...yeah...right...I don't know if I really want to do that given the fact that I really haven't thought too much about what I'm reading when I'm just trying to get an answer down. I've seen that God is a missionary God and that He is much bigger than our limitations, but I'm wondering exactly how one can teach something that is just taught to us and not experienced in real life. I don't know...maybe I'm thinking too much.

Anyway, I'm not sure exactly what I'm doing in this class, but I think that I should be reading right now.